| twerk it bitch..... |
[ September 18,2006 at 6 pm] |
Been up since like 8am.... drove back to Riverside.... showered... then went out to lunch with Lori and Amy and had like a 2 hour conversation abotu whatever... mostly sexually explicit material which was awesome as fuck to talk about... came home, had part 2 of girl talk for another hour.. then played video games. and Lori and Amys mom is currently over.. so im putzhing around here..... I miss Matt so freekin much, I cant wait to see him later tonight.
I got a bitchin ass system put into my car like 2 days ago... new Pioneer deck, new Polk speakers with tweeters, 10's SUBWOOFER!, and an AMP to go witht he subwoofer and speakers.... this shit packs soo much bass it can break windows ... its soo fucking amazing... it was a back to school present along with brand new headlights, and a chrome muffler tip. My cars the fucking sheit y0.
I cant wait for my Domestic Imports necklace I had specially made.... its going to be sick and the boys will love it....
i miss matttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.
le sigh.
<3.
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[ September 17,2006 at 8 pm] |
Last night was Jenns 21st b day in Hollywood. Lori and I were late, then she locked my keys in my car accidently and all the valet guys were hitting on us and touching and grabbing at us and yeah it was just a crappy feeling... Her party was cool, got to talk to some old PS friends I havent seen or heard from in awhile... Noel called me and we talked for over an hour, because I have some pretty heavy shit going on in my life right now and I miss him and hes one of the few people i trust and who really knows me.. so i told him what was going on and had a mini breakdown because its extremely hard to talk about, so he wanted to pick me up at 12am tonight and take me to Laguna to spend the night on the beach... as nice as that sounds though its not a good idea since Matt and I are official and I love him and would not want to mess anything up because he makes me soo happy.
So as far as the shit im dealing with right now, I want to make it clear that I DO NOT want you to come up to me and ask whats wrong, or if I want to talk about it or anything resembling that nature. I DO NOT want to talk about it and if i do I will approach you.. Do not approach me and say im sorry, i understand, or any of that bullshit. That will only piss me off and possibly make me bitch you out, i dont care who you are. when i want to talk about it i will, otherwise please butt out of my life. thanks.
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[ September 7,2006 at 10 pm] |
I moved into a four bedroom apartment with Lori, Amy and Lisa!! It's sweet and I like it and we have oodles of fun.
I also bought a beautiful Ruby red single hosed hookah... finally....
I PROMISE that I am going to update this thing daily again....
So remember that entry I wrote a few dates back talking about those guys Lori and I had met at Starbucks from the band Domestic Imports??!
yeah, so Lori and I have been dating them (matt and gary) for a little over a month now <333333333
and let me tell you, we could not be any happier. Im head over heals smitten with Matt. He's adorable and everything I want and need.
Tomorrw Domestic Imports is having a show at the Corona showcase!!!
Go support them!! plus ill be there.!
today at work my supervisor hit on me and gave me his number... it was weird.... and awkward....
here's some recent pix of our random shennanigans thus far..... i swear so much shit has happened in the past week, its unbelieveable......
Zach!!!! oh how i luff this guy!!! my hoe bag!!!
no were not making out... its called "shotgun" where you blow hookah into someone elses mouth.
<3333333333333.
shasta
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[ July 15,2006 at 7 pm] |
does the humidity seem thicker today?
is my skin a little pale?
am i crying when i smile?
is it depressing that im to exhausted to love anyone? or just to me?
am i dead in the head?
is it only cold on the outside or are you cold inside too?
is it ok that my sleeping patterns are erratic , just like me?
is it perfect that silence is my new lover?
i know your face
my tag says "small one"
i'll keep off weight
i need a shot of anything.
i want something more and im scared i wont find it
time is dead
i really fucked up this week.
i cant be angry only sad.
_Shasta
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| in every circle of friends there's a whore.... |
[ July 14,2006 at 10 am] |
Yes, so I have been up since 7am this morning.. had to take my new kitty I adopted about a month and a half ago in to get his little kitty balls sliced off !!! aha! Hopefully it will make him calm down because he acts to hyper and retarded and annoying. Adorable tho, regardless.
Aside, from that this has been a really awkward and weird week for me.... Tuesday night was both interesting and overwhelming, and has sent my head and heart spinning in all different directions... regarding a certain boy...
Last night, I had a conversation with another certain boy, basically about whereisthisgoingifanywhere type of conversation.... eh... just an overall awkward, somewhat shitty week.
I think the only thing that kept me going and put a smile on my face was work. Thank buddha for m little kiddos, they never cease to make me laugh or smile. such an amazing job. I am way to lucky ...
Yesterday, Lori and I did our daily chillage at Starbucks and there was live music and this local punk/ska band called Domestic Imports was playing and I thought the flute player was adorable and Lori found the lead singer to be cute. After the show they ended up coming up to talk to us for a bit, and Lori and I instantaneously fell in love with them.. ahah.. They're names were Gary and Matt. so we tried to track them down on myspace.. found their music page but not their individuals... However, they told us that they are there EVERY thursday because they're the ones that host the free music, so Lori and I pretty much are going to be busy from every thursday here on out!!!! heh... (like the last thing I need is another boy situation to deal with in my life right now, right?!)
More later....
<3333.
_Shasta
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[ July 8,2006 at 11 pm] |
whats up bitchesssssssss!!!
im back to the lovely world of LJ !!!! and yes ive missed it as well as all of you!!! so, look forward to frequent continuous updates! and enjoy the new layout!!!
Quick summary: I am enjoying summer and living up every day.... non stop partying, and hanging with friends, and just keeping busy doing everything i possibly can...
- i have the most amazing job: I'm a therapist for Autistic children, and I absolutely love it !
- i met a wonderfully sweetheart of a guy names jason, who I have been seeing for the past month.
- and theres a shit ton more stuff but Tiff and I need to head out to whittier to party it up !!!
ex's and oh's
_Shasta
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[ April 12,2006 at 8 pm] |
Monday was my birthday, and I must say, best freaking birthday ever because I have the most wonderful family and friends in the entirety of the world.
Saturday I went back to Palm Springs and hung out with my parents a little, tanned, and studied for my statistics midterm (which was on my freaking birthday, and mind you its only the 2nd week of this quarter!) .. later on Noel took me out to dinner and we ate a lot and had dessert, then went back to his apt. and chilled.
Sunday I went on a day long shopping spree with my mommy.... and then dinner later at Cheesecake factory with mommy and daddy... then when we got back home we had a mini party.. when i arrived at home saturday the living room was all decorated with balloons and confetti and presents and little easter chickies and stuff, it was adorable.. so after dinner i opened presents and my mom had made a cake with a barbie thing on it haha.... my 'rents got me this awesome Juicy Couture necklace.. its the freeking sex i love it!!! ended up staying the night is PS kuz i was too tired to drive back...
Monday: left PS at 8:30am and headed back to R.Side and when i walked into my apt. it was alll decorated with b day stuff and there were gorgeous flowes and presents and happy birthday notes!! it was sooo adorable!! i loved it, but i couldnt enjoy it because I had to go take my midterm lol. So when i got back from that Lori, Amy, and I had a mini party and i opened my gifts and Amy brought out a cake and guess it: it was a specially madce Penis cake for me!!!! ahahah!!! soooo awesome!!!! Later that night, Lori, Amy, Tiffany, Lisa, Anthony and I went out for bday dinner at BJ's... had a freeking awesome time...I love everyone that was there.. all special people that are very near and dear to my heart. We were there for like two hours, laughing and just having a great time. After that we went back to the apt. Anthony left, then I opened his gift and Lisas... he got me pretty fluffy pillows! and Lisa's gift was amazing. awesome framed picture! (haha) scented bubbles! which I have been dying for! and omg my absolute fav. a bunch of rolled up papers with pictures and descriptions of an assorted variety of sexual items ranging anywhere from vibrators to lube and cock rings! and she said I could pick any one I wanted!!! Awww! sooo freekin awesome!!!
Overall, I thank all of my friends soo much. Thank you to everyone for the beautiful Myspace messages/comments, Facebook comments, text messages and phone calls, as well as all the gifts, hardwork, and thoughtfulness that went into everything. I wholeheartedly appreciate it and love you all. With friends like that, who has time or reason to ever frown. I truly am lucky.
I love you all, thank you so very much for making my birthday special.
<333.
_Shasta
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[ March 26,2006 at 4 pm] |
too much has happened to be in the span of two weeks.
+ One crazy night in Tijuana on St, Pattys Day
+ Becoming deathly deathly ill = blacking out, spitting up blood, severe sore throat, unbearable body aches and pains, dizzyness, lightheaded, leack of mobility, fatigue, etc....etc...
+ My very first CAR ACCIDENT, to which it was NOT my fault.. some idiot side swiped my beautiful Jetta quite hard, resulting in mondo damage to almost the entire passenger sife of my car, not to mention, he screwed up my front axel annnnnnnnnddddddddd, immensely scratched my beautiful new $2000 for one, Chrom rim. le sigh.... it's getting worked on as I type this, his insurance is paying for everything.... its about $10,000 or so in damage. lovely.... My rent a car is a 2006 Ford Mustang GT... hah. American Cars can kiss my ass, I look sexy as fuck in it, but its impractical to drive. Whatever.
( Not to mention that all this happened in the span of last week DURING MY FUCKING FINALS )
yeah, so 3 breakdowns later, lack of sleep, non drivable car, lack of studying, I just did not care anymore. That was the worst week of my life.
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So, not I am officially enjoying spring break, and I am taking a nice relaxing well deserved break. I need to get my health back up and I need to heighten my spirits again:
SPRING BREAK ITINERARY:
- Monday: Back to Riverside to expereince group adventure w/ Lori, Criss and Anthony
- Tuesday: Tijuana w/ Noel for some shopping
- Wednesday: Huntington Beach w/ Lori, for some well needed R and R, boy watching, sun, and Lunch on thr Pier
- Thursday: Six Flags Magic Mountain
- Friday: Back to PS for a Day at the Spa w/ the parentals, followed by happy hour at Margaritavilles, then followed by the Neil Young movie.
- Saturday: Trip Ojai to visit my lovely Lisa whom I miss so much.
--- I would also like to drag the boyfriend to Laguna at somepoint this week too. we shall see. we need to stop being bumps on a log.
yeah so all this is subject to change... depending on when I get my car back, depending on weather, etc.etc......
please feel free to call me if you want to do something... im down to party at night maybe go clubbing, whatever. Hope everyone has a nice spring break.
x0x0x0
_Shasta
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[ March 16,2006 at 1 am] |
AnthonyArbizo: as honest as we want to be with someone we really like or even love
AnthonyArbizo: its sooo hard
AnthonyArbizo: cause we are so scared of it
AnthonyArbizo: thats the fear
AnthonyArbizo: that you love a person
AnthonyArbizo: and dont get it returned
AnthonyArbizo: getting the concept of love from someone and actually recieving love is two differnt things
He could not have verbalized it any better.....
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[ March 14,2006 at 1 am] |
(most important part of convo)
z3r0 no zero (12:03:18 AM): Hmmph, well sorry to say, but he can't do much in a state of depression except for say what he can. Actions are things that we don't think of when we're depressed out of our skulls.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:04:08 AM): i know i know.. so i should just wait it out?
z3r0 no zero (12:04:52 AM): no i didn't say that. I mean being depressed is still an excuse. Hell if i were depressed i'd be all super ultra clingy... heh.
z3r0 no zero (12:05:41 AM): Talk things out.
z3r0 no zero (12:05:46 AM): Thats advice #1
z3r0 no zero (12:05:54 AM): for all situations in life, there is a conversation that can solve it.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:08:31 AM): i suppose
Hi im ShastaHo (12:09:12 AM): uggg
z3r0 no zero (12:10:54 AM): don't ugh.
z3r0 no zero (12:10:58 AM): we can only run away for so long.
z3r0 no zero (12:11:09 AM): why not turn and fight the demons before they get all big fat and ugly ?
Hi im ShastaHo (12:11:51 AM): because i dont want to make the one guy i love feel any worse then he already does
z3r0 no zero (12:13:27 AM): ok random question that will help out with an analogy... do you have a belly piercing? or any other awesome piercing ?
Hi im ShastaHo (12:13:35 AM): no
z3r0 no zero (12:13:44 AM): no nose? ears perhaps ?
Hi im ShastaHo (12:13:49 AM): nope
z3r0 no zero (12:14:20 AM): well that analogy won't work then... hmmph.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:14:26 AM): sorrry
z3r0 no zero (12:14:28 AM): any cool shoes that hurt when you wear them? :-)
Hi im ShastaHo (12:14:36 AM): my stilleto pumps
z3r0 no zero (12:15:02 AM): K... good. So honesty is like your stilleto pumps. It might hurt at first, but its fucking awesome and will be appreciated sooner or later.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:15:10 AM): lol
z3r0 no zero (12:16:00 AM): and you know i'm fucking awesome for that analogy.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:16:02 AM): my other guy friend said: if it's really bothering you, and you don't see yourself with him forever, break it off....but if you think he's the one, stay with him and support him
z3r0 no zero (12:16:50 AM): THats a good way to put it. But we can't see the future quite clearly enough.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:16:58 AM): exactly
z3r0 no zero (12:17:07 AM): If you're honest with him, and then he gives you some fuck tard of something... then i'd say leave him.
z3r0 no zero (12:20:41 AM): Maybe if you're scared to talk to him because of his reaction there is something there that is bugging you a lot... Hmmph. HONESTY :-(
Hi im ShastaHo (12:23:00 AM): uggg i know i know
z3r0 no zero (12:23:25 AM): what are you so scared of hun?
Hi im ShastaHo (12:23:45 AM): i dont want to hurt his feelings
z3r0 no zero (12:24:33 AM): feelings are meant to be broken, rekindled, fixed into something better.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:24:46 AM): uggg
Hi im ShastaHo (12:24:47 AM): i know
Hi im ShastaHo (12:25:02 AM): and i dont want to cause drama
Hi im ShastaHo (12:25:11 AM): i just to make sure hes sincere
z3r0 no zero (12:25:36 AM): If hes seriously offended by something you say there is 2 things that can happen. He a) accepts your honesty and takes it into hardcore consideration strengthening the relationship, or b) he rejects everything in which you can tell the kind of person he is.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:25:55 AM): while alluding to the fact that im here to support him
Hi im ShastaHo (12:27:07 AM): hes def. the A type of person
Hi im ShastaHo (12:27:30 AM): hes all about personal growth and being the best he can be and learning in a relationship
z3r0 no zero (12:30:07 AM): then why're you so afraid ?
z3r0 no zero (12:30:10 AM): it can only go good.
Hi im ShastaHo (12:31:20 AM): kuz its going to make him feel bad
Hi im ShastaHo (12:31:47 AM): he'll get a little sad and pry be like , i know i know but its kuz i havent had a job and you know how much i love you and etc etc
z3r0 no zero (12:33:23 AM): but you know that hes just being honest with you, and that everything is ok, and everything will be alright, etc etc
z3r0 no zero (12:50:37 AM): Hmmph, i hope everything works out for you though =/
z3r0 no zero (12:50:56 AM): Bad things don't deserve to happen to good people, but they happen to make you stronger.
Phil, I PHUCKING LOVE YOU! and i owe you boba... for real this time.
--- i swear this whole thing just came crashing down on me.... just in time for finals too... wonderful timing.
le sigh...
i'll get through this.. i know i will... we both will... its just the process to get there that sucks.
iloveyoucooper.
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[ March 7,2006 at 12 am] |
You make me _______.You should _______.Someday I will ______.
You = ________.If I saw you now I'd __________.
I would build a _______ just for you.
I would get your name tattooed on my __________.
If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.
My love for you is like that of ____________.
Love,
_______________
(P.S. ______________.)
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[ February 28,2006 at 12 am] |
Had a good weekend....
Our plan of partying fell through... due to lack of everything....
Ended up spending it with the boy...
I consumed jack n coke on an empty stomach, which as a result, made me pray to the procelain sink at like 8am the next morning...
screw the internship...
Spent the majority of the weekend in bed or on the couch w/ Cooper watching the remainder of the olympics.
Took him back to huntington sunday night since his car is making noises.... ate dinner.. dropped him off at home...
came back to R.side... got really stressed at the fact that I had done nothing this whole weekend, but managed to smile because I got to relax and spend it with someone special.
But nonetheless, still pissed.
Overslept like a mofo, since I gave Cooper my cell phone, on account of his not working. So no alarm = Shasta's lazy ass not getting up :)..
finally woke up around 1pm in a coma induced state to find it raining...
it was just such a blah day.... i tried to study for math and I just could not focus... too tired and just drained.... managed to finally get a hold on philosophy, after hours of trying to understand Kant and Mills.... although Doc, I could still use your hel p on that one question :) <333 !
Other then that, its been blah and bleh and stresssssful and lonely. I hate the fact that I get really comfy and too used to Cooper being here on the weekends, so when the week rolls around I'm left with a very errie and lonely uncomfortable state of mind, and surrounding.
It's just not the same feeling of satisfaction when I don't get to wake up in his arms, or to his kisses.
Yay for studying!
<3. Shasta
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[ February 22,2006 at 12 am] |
Saturday the lovely Lisa and I went to HollyWood to get out of Riverside and let loose!
We arrived there and walked around the mall in Santa Monica at 3rd street promenade.. and Lisa bought this hot nightie at Fredericks of Hollywood on sale for $7! Then we ditched on this asian lady at the smoothie stand kuz they only took cash... dumb bitch..
Then we drove around looking for Venice.. but got lazy and proceeded to Hollywood where we got even lazier and still didnt get out of the car until we finally found highland and hollywood blvd.... walked around ... went into the Erotic Sex Museum and had great times in there... then went on a hunt for Sex shops... Cooper called and said he had my apt. keys and wanted to drop them off to me so we walked back towards highland and met up with him to get my keys and when we were kissing goodbye there was this hobo blowing kisses at Lisa from the window lol....
Lisa and I headed back down Hollywood blvd. and decided to eat so we stopped at this hole in the wall pizza place where I couldnt figure out whether the individual helping us was male or female... Lisa assured me it was female... it talked funny and made me feel uncomfortable, and swooped the tips out of the tip cup like a vulture swoops up a carcass....
after that we hit up the huge costume store and bought fun fake eye lashes for clubbing later that night...0h and we found JESUS!! he was behind the counter!!! silly jesus..
found a few sex stores, whih only resulted in making us horny...
then found another one where the lady asked us if we wanted to try any of the dildos/vibrators out of the box... lol i was like WTF? are you serious?
after that we left because our parking time was almost up, so we then decided to go back to Lisas aunts house.. .. but we end up getting lost.. and going up the mountains.. and we turn around at one point and we pull out and this mexican guy in a red truck comes barrrelling at full speed at us and almost slams into the side of Lisas car.... SCARY stuff! and it was all GEORGE BUSH's FAULT! thats what we concluded anyways...
we finally got there (after almost getting in another accident) and Lisas grandma is cooking... we end up going on a spontaneous trip to get more table clothes and knifes w/ her Aunts b/f Craig (WHO IS THE ABSOLUTE COOOLEST GUY IN THE WORLD!) soo we end up at Ross, and Lisa picks out this horrendously wonderful Egg tree to serve as the centerpeice ahahhaha.... it was lovely!
I met the rest of Lisas family, including her sister Michelle, who I fell in love with :) .... and we talked then ate dinner... then talked some more and holy hell i love her family...
after that we started to get ready to go to club Rage, which is a hot Gay club in west hollywood....
takes over an hour to get ready because applying fake eye lashes with my nail glue is a very dangerous task.... but we managed and finally headed for the club...
had good conversations while driving there...
got to the club.... danced with the adorable gay couple.... they left then this Russian guy was all over Lisa, and then this Mexican midget came up and started humping the fuck out of my butt and leg... he was seriously riding me like a friggen cowboy.. it was disgusting and anooying and i though he was going to hurt me lol..... then this chick saved me and sandwhiched me between her and her gay friend and he kept trying to pull me away from them...
eh... i can tbelieve i was humped by a midget...
later on this guy Kelvin approaches us and asks if were together, which we say yes, because we planned to say that earlier on :) ... so we danced for a little bit then his friend came and joined us .. and afterwhile we go outside ot take a break where we all start talking and find out that Kelvins straight and his roomie Joshy is gay heh ... they were adorable, we stayed together for the rest of the night and later on that damn midget came back and started humping my leg again but this time Kelvin saved me lol.... then me and Kelvin started talking and yeah.. interesting convo... ill leave it at that.
so we left the club around 2am... got back to R.side around 3:45... I got in bed at like 4... then 45 min later I hear this tapping on my window and the shit gets scared out of me so I go up to the window and look and I see see Cooper all smiling and waving hahahaha.. im like damnit you scared me!
so we slept until like 3pm the next day... . and lounged around.
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0h and cooper didnt get evicted from his apt. :) ... and I ended up giving him $400 towards his rent so things are slowly starting to look up :)
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so today i went to check out Daniel's new house which is friggen huge and nice and omg i cannot wait to party there! and I got to see JD who I havent seen in forever and he was sooo happy to see me! lol, but not so happy to know that I have a boyfriend that I care deeply about. He gave me his fav. comics heh :) ... it was cute, and me, JD, Daniel, and Andre who was drunk and hilarious were just hanging out and talking for a bit... then we all had to leave so I said my goodbyes which took like 15 min all in itself kuz andre was being dumb lol... then he got on my car and wouldnt get off and I accidently ran over JD's foot .. aw... im so sorry! all in all it was wonderful seeing them!!!
then when I was leaving to get ont he freeway i had to stop at this 4 way stop that didnt have any stop signs and it was really busy, so i had the right of way to go so i start going and all of a sudden theres thus huge truck barrelling down the other lane (which i couldnt see) at 50mph, and he was suppose to stop but didnt, so I had to swerve my car out of the way otherwise he wouldve smashed into me soo hard.. and i end up swerving up onto this curb thing into a mound of dirt really hard... no damage at all to my car.. but my chest hurts and my side hurts and im scared to sleep... it was traumatic kuz i have never ever almost ben in a an accident before... but omg i got so lucky you have no idea, if this whole ordeal wouldve happened a second later id be in the hospital right now with a totaled car.... and i almost hit the poll nearby... the guy kept trying to apologize and shit and i was like just shut the hell up and leave me alone right now...
eh not fun... but im thankful..
so yeah thats been my week thus far heh...
<33. Shasta
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[ February 17,2006 at 9 pm] |
i am currently watching the Olympics!!! what else is new...
and I just got off the phone with JD and Daniel, and Daniel is finaly moving into his house in R.Side!! which means PARTY!! and JD is going to help him move this weekend so I'll get to see him! I havent seen him in forever!
and the lovely Lisa and I are taking a nice vacation road trip to HollyWood tomorrow!
and I just painted my nails and toes with a beautiful shade of Christian Dior pink....
and I got a wonderful call from Brandon last night on my way back from Newport...
and I am currently waiting for Cooper to stop by...
and we had an emotional day... :(
but I Love Cooper.. and I cannot wait to see his smile again... sooo... please let it be soon...
... and i think im going to go party hard tonight because i love and miss tiffffffffffffany
..... and Amy's stuck in Hesperia at her b/f house because its SNOWING! WTF im sooo jealous!!!
im in such a gooooooooood mood!
<333.
__Shasta
FOOOd time with Lori!
PS-
I GOT MOFO'ing sunburned because I stayed in the tanning boooth an extra 4 minutes ahahahah because I want to be tan NOW!!! its going to look soo goood tho in a few days!
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[ February 15,2006 at 11 pm] |
Life is a series of calluses;
this is just another layer.........
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[ February 15,2006 at 5 pm] |
im still feeling extremely sick... not flu/cold sick... but migraine/nausea/just kill me now type of sick....
so i think im going to do a brief fasting because maybe this feeling like shit is my bodies way of exclaiming to me that its mad at me for some reason or another.. either way i feel the need to purge my body fully of everything, especially this bug that has plagued my current existence!
0h and lucky me, I got yet another present from the Nazi's that are the UCR parking control.... thats my 2nd ticket this week... which means that instead of owing $25, now i owe $50 ! i think thats my 10th ticket since this quarter has started.... we wont talk about how many in total i have 0:-) .... haha, yeah thats right im one bad ass parking ticket mutha fucka.
i asked my dad if i could take out $800 from my personal trust fun to pay Coopers rent and he said he'd think about it, or find something to work out.... my dad has a solution for anything
Im having a party with myself again in bed tonight because the olympics are on! and I am a die hard olympic fan... the only thing that sucks is nobody here likes the olympics like I do, so I have nobody to enjoy it with, besides Cooper, but he has class :( ......
I am also going to start writing/drawing/musing in my art journal again... i think i could utilize it as an outlet since im comatosing out on my life right now.
and its a 3 day weekend and I had my heart set on partying like no other to make up for the past few weeks, but seeing as how I feel like shit, I dont know if thats going to happen... le sigh.
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I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
ciao!
<3.Shasta
PS- I want a pen pal... does anyone know of any legitand good sites out there to get one... or anything fun that includes sending mails or pix to people and recieving them back and such...lemmme know
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[ February 14,2006 at 5 pm] |
Happy Valentines Day !
Hope everyones went as well as planned! In addition its also my parents anniversary today :-)
So, last night Lori and I played cupid for the boys... around 12am we drove to Hemet and decorated the path to the front door with flowers and a big note Lori made for Criss, the guy she likes... it was really cute...
after that we went back to r.side to wake up Amy and do the thing she had planned to do for her b/f Matt. She took his keys to his car while he was sleeping so we filled his car with red, pink, and white balloons.. then put streamers all over his car! I have pix of that one, which ill post later....
After that we proceeded to Newport Beach to carry out my plan for my Cooper... we got there at like 2:55am or so, and started streamering the hell out of his car, and i hung little heart decorations things on his mirrors and placed a huge card i made for him w/ a single red rose on his widshield, then we covered the car in balloons.. and then around 3:30am we hear the front door open and Lori and I freaked out and it turned out that it was Cooper.. but LUCKILY, he didnt see us! I wouldve beeen so upset if my surprised was ruined! we quickly finished up and left and proceeded back to r.side mind you its nearly 4am now..... we're tired... we want to go to bed so Lori barely driving 84, and low and behold, a fucking cop pulls us over.... he was sucha douche and she ended up getting a ticket... its my fault, i shouldve drove, so it wouldve happened to me instead of her....
so we skipped class this morning and I talked to Cooper and he loved his surprise :), and Criss talked to Lori and said she was "amazing" and then later on we found that he had sent her flowers w/ a really sweet note so Im extremely excited for her!! We shall see what happens!
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Other then that, I feel like shit right now, as if im in some comatose like state... and I'm extremely stressed.... this year has been treating my awful.. it started off bad and seems to keep getting worse.... Cooper still hasnt found a new job and is going to be evicted from his brand new house by monday if he doesnt come up with his $800 rent he owes two of his best friends.... hes depressed which in turn makes me depressed because i care and i dont want anything bad to happen to him.... i swear im going to get a job as a stripper. seriously though, if anyone has any ideas of how i can get a nice chunk of money fast then please tell me or im becoming a stripper, regardless of what anyone thinks...
i woke up this morning feeling like shit.. i know im run down and i know im not taking good care of my physical health right now and I could care less.
the bitch wont call me back for the one internship i want and want now...and its starting to piss me off.
while im complaning, people need to seriously learn how to grow up... stop living in such a high-school sense of mentality.
either grow the fuck up, or keep your mouth fucking shut and stop causing drama, and hurting innocent individuals that did not do anything in the first place.
This is not high school anymore... this is REAL LIFE.. look it up in the dictionary
More later.. i have class
-Shasta
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[ February 6,2006 at 10 am] |
my fucking car got impounded and the Towing service will not pick up their fucking phones...
FUCK YOU RIVERSIDE
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[ February 5,2006 at 8 pm] |
Hey!
so it has been a long time.... I cannot even begin
to relay all that has happened in the past month....but i will do my
best in suming it up:
* Vegas in New Years with Tiffany was wonderful until Tony screwed it
up for me... and there was not nearly enough rum and coke inside me to
numb the pain.. so yeah.. BUT despite that, thanks to Tiffany and
Cooper (who was there via phone to make me smile) my New Years was
salvagable and nice...
after new years, it gets a little fuzzy as far as everything i did...
uhmm.. went to Cooper's moms house for dinner in San Diego before I had
even met him haha .. (we met on myspace, he went to PSHS, i knew a lot
of his friends, we started talking a week prior to me going to Vegas)]
uhhmm.. lori and i took a random trip to Santa Barbara to see Jeff at 1am......
Lori and I also went on a stakeout in front of someones house until 5am earlier this month... lol........
i clepto'ed this huge seagull figurine off of someones yard on Martin Luther King day.....
we got two bunnies, thanks to amy and her suggestions...
we bought DDR...
.i eat a lot of gelato now...
i met a bunch of new awesome beautiful people, including a lovely girl named Lisa whom i love dearly.....
had three midterms in one week last week... studied my ass off..
and felt confident in all 3 midterms... so im very proud.
and the most important thing..... am happily in a beautiful relationship with Cooper :)
it will be a month this thursday already ... but more on that subject later.
i will be updating this on a regular basis now. that is a promise.. but please let me know if you are still reading this.
<333. shasta
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[ January 10,2006 at 4 pm] |
Rest In Peace Stevie
May your beauty, spirit and memory live on forever girl.
:-( ....
Sleep now beautiful.
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